Spring has Sprung

“It is spring again.

The earth

is like a child

that knows poems

by heart.”

-Rainer Maria Rilke

It is spring and so I am awoken. People love to say I’m an autumn but I feel most like myself in spring. I love flowers and in spring they bloom. Cherries, raspberries, and kiwis are in season. The sun sets later. Just those three statements make spring the superior season. Spring is the season of Charlotte York and all things wonderful.

You know I live in Los Angeles because as I’m writing this it's March, 70 degrees Fahrenheit, UV 7, and I’m sitting by my poolside. I went to a party last night which was very much needed after being eaten alive by schoolwork and general life over the past 6 months. I woke up this morning, went to early morning pilates with my best friend in the whole wide world, got breakfast, and now I’m tanning with my other best friend in the whole wide world. This is a series of events that would simply be impossible during winter or autumn. I guess you could pull this off over the summer but summers in Los Angeles feel like hell (literally, considering it's always a million degrees out). Spring is the season that I can blast music made by Sabrina Carpenter and Taylor Swift without caring about some rat telling me their music sucks. Who cares if they suck? It's spring! Life is good. 

Spring is always so full of optimism. I was just talking to my friend about my favorite show, Sex and the City (SATC). We talked about how the show can really evoke strong emotions (mostly tears on our parts). I’ve watched the show a solid 5 times and I cry every single time something unfortunate happens to Charlotte York. I feel like every girl with a blog high-key strives to be Carrie Bradshaw but I am such a Charlotte. If you’ve never watched SATC, Charlotte can be overly judgemental and prissy but, despite those negative characteristics, continues to be the kindest, optimistic, and most loving person. Charlotte strives for the picture perfect life: her ideal husband, children, and an apartment on Park Avenue. Spoiler warning!!! Skip the rest of this paragraph if you don’t want me to ruin your SATC experience. In the first couple of seasons, Charlotte is determined to find the perfect man to marry and start a family with. Eventually she meets Trey McDougal and they marry shortly after meeting each other. They have complications conceiving and that is when Charlotte discovers that she is barren. This discovery is just so heartbreaking considering that 90% of what Charlotte talks about is having children. She stays optimistic, looking into in vitro and adoption. I mean the girl attempts to learn Chinese just in case she adopts a child from China. Then her stupid husband decides having a child is too complicated and not worth it so they get divorced. If I were her I probably would’ve crashed out but Charlotte stayed optimistic as per usual. She kept dreaming of her ideal life and eventually got remarried. She and her second husband are struggling to conceive when she meets Elizabeth Taylor (the dog) in Central Park. Elizabeth Taylor was meant to be a show dog but couldn't perform well enough and so her owner was mean to her just because of her incapabilities. When Charlotte saw this she said something along the lines of “Just because somebody can't perform the way you want them to doesn't mean you should just give up on them”, clearly talking about her experiences with pregnancy. Charlotte York reminds me of spring and so I’ll carry her optimism and love for life with me throughout the season and ideally the rest of my life. I may have a blog but I'm a Charlotte all day, everyday (BuzzFeed says so). 

Spring always marks a time for new beginnings but I’m feeling it stronger this time around. It was about two weeks ago when I started to see crows everywhere. The crows could’ve been there before and I simply didn't pay too much mind to it but now I notice. After seeing crows on every corner I got fed up and searched up “What does it mean if I keep seeing crows?” WikiHow so gracefully blessed me with the answer to my question: “Temporary and unexpected changes are coming, but the outcome will be positive”. Thank you, wikiHow! It’s safe to say a lot has changed. Light has been shed on who my real friends are; who is worth keeping and who is not. My neighbors tamed their severely overgrown lawn. My mom got the urge to actually do my room (I’ve been living in this house for almost two years and still refuse to really move in). It just seems like life is weeding out everything unnecessary. Sometimes I miss what has been weeded out but I think it's important to acknowledge that life was moving before it and life will keep moving after. I will move on and build normalcy in what is now my life. 

I feel like it is around this time that people become evil. People become so consumed with academics and balancing life that they lowkey just go insane! Through this little phase, I’ve been noticing people trying to paint me out as evil. At first, it got to me. I would genuinely sit and ponder if I’m evil too? Then I realized I’m not and I’m actually an angel! All jokes aside, I am pretty kind and it's something I pride myself in. I know when I’m wrong and I’m always able to acknowledge it. I was once told that I was a ray of sunshine. I melted. It was simply the kindest thing somebody has ever said to me. I don’t speak to this person too much anymore (for undisclosed reasons) but I think about what they said a lot and it gets me through some of my toughest days. So in a time where people want to be evil, I make it my goal to be somebody’s ray of sunshine. I’ll laugh and make jokes that people might not find funny. I’ll smile at the people I walk past. I’ll do stupid, silly, and harmless stuff and I’ll be judged for it but it doesn’t matter because I'm happy. 

This spring I plan on blasting the Eagles and The Beatles and I plan on dancing with my friends and I plan on watching the sunset from the beach and I plan on really enjoying life. Take a moment to stop and smell the flower, enjoy using cherry juice as lip and cheek stain, and love with everything in your heart and soul as those are the things that make spring so special. 

Best,

Eila